Listening to the Wind

Have you ever gotten to a place where you felt dead in the water? Just no wind in your sails?  A place where you just really need to hear from God; you need some direction or some sense that He is directing you. You need His holy wind to fill your sails. I have been there many times, and I found myself there again a few months ago. It is  a hard place. It was a long time of stillness, a long time of just waiting, searching, hoping for a sense of His holy wind.

I think through the years I have realized there are those times — sometimes extended times — when there is just no movement, and seemingly no sense of His voice or direction. But I have also found there seems to always be a breakthrough. Sometimes it comes in the most surprising and unpredictable ways. I also know it is important to keep searching for it, keep waiting for it, keep expecting it.

I find that I am really thankful not only for those times that His wind blew through, but also for the times of stillness, because it is in those times that I keep searching and seeking him. It was in those times that Harbor Ministry was launched, and in those times that I came to grips with the loss of my parents. It was in those still times that I wrote journals for my kids as they went off to college. As I think about it, it was in those times when I felt He was most silent that He was speaking pretty clearly.

Over these next few weeks I am determined to go and to listen, and to wait for the holy wind.